self discovery

To become nothing is a monstrous tragedy that is only destined for those deserved of it. Even greater a horror is to become nothing when you have potential (or at least believe you do). To grow up with passion and desire of becoming something, of helping others and succeeding in creating purpose for your life. Instead you drift into a meaningless retail job, with a basic undergraduate degree, lost and without passion for anything certain, except wanting more.

I tried finding comfort in the words of Oscar Wilde:

“If you want to be a grocer, or a general, or a politician, or a judge, you will invariably become it; that is your punishment. If you never know what you want to be, if you live what some might call the dynamic life but what I will call the artistic life, if each day you are unsure of who you are and what you know you will never become anything , and that is your reward.”

To become something you have wanted with great passion will bring happiness and greater sense of identity. To be lost never becoming anything, because you have no idea of what you want to be or what you want is a punishment fit for the worst.

Maybe laying out a passionate goal and being proactive is the cure from becoming nothing.

“Fortune cannot aid those who do nothing.”- Sophocles

I am deserved to become something more than a circular retail job and worthless bachelor degree. We are all deserving of becoming what we want.

Waking up in a strange town or city is both mentally shocking and purely magical. The brain and the soul seem to crave these events. They crave to wake up to something new and fresh.

The city of your home is comfortable and pleasent but it is ultimately a trap. It’s hard to leave and its hard to go out and explore it.

HOME IS STAGNANT! A pond that holds life and warmth but doesn’t allow you to be fresh and to feel impossibly small in a good way.

Waking up to the beeping of a new city or the rattle of different trains excites the senses for adventure, and it isn’t just the city were discovering! IT’S US.

“When you travel, you first discover a sense of your significance”

You first have this uncomfortable feeling that you are so insignificant in the world you are a thread away from being invisible, you are just a breath that floats for moment in front of the earth. Eventually that insignificance slowly erodes away your realisation of mortality. You accept your fate of insignificance to the earth and larger things. You open your eyes to the new sights with an eagerness that says, “who cares anyway, I’m going to explore my curiosities and I’m not going to worry about how I’m seen by others.”

New foods, new buildings, new mountains, new forests, new oceans are staring back at you. There is a moment you realise shortly after accepting your insignificance, that you are actually extremely significant. You are significant to yourself and to the people you meet and share your experiences with. These shared experiences are the most memorable we get to souvenir and bring with us everywhere.

Go forth and share your experiences. Share moments and they’ll last longer, smell sweeter, and stamp your heart harder than any others have before.

undiscovered character

On becoming nothing…

HOME IS STAGNANT. Why the mind loves to wake in a new city.